BEFORE I DIE: FINAL EPISODE (Run Away)

????????????????????????????????????????????????????I am thoughtless. I am just blank. I’m not angry. I’m not happy. I’m not depressed. I don’t know what I am feeling. I don’t even know what I feel towards Mum, but I know it isn’t a good feeling. It is that kind of feeling you don’t clearly understand, but somehow causes you to end up making bad choices, as long as they help you feel better.

How could she? I thought they understood me? Should I blame it on ignorance? Maybe she really doesn’t know what she is doing? Maybe it’s my fault in the first place? If I hadn’t gone and bagged me some HIV, this wouldn’t have happened.

I simply turn around, away from her, and return to my room to lie down. Whatever I am feeling however didn’t let me be. I’m not at rest, but I can’t place my hand on anything to be the reason. Nothing seems to matter. I plug in my ear phones and start listening to music. I don’t know if that helps, because I am still feeling those things. Continue reading

Bradley Cooper Hopes To Direct and Co-Star with Beyoncé in ‘A Star Is Born’ Remake

star_is_beyoncedAh, A Star Is Born — ageless and evergreen. The classic tale of a future has-been eclipsed by the rising stardom of his more talented wife has been remade more times in Hollywood than Kim Kardashian’s changed lovers. Hoping to turn this dream into a reality, noted Oscar nominee Bradley Cooper is in talks with Warner Bros. to make his directorial debut with the film, according to Deadline. But who — who, I ask?! — could possibly fill the shoes immortally inhabited by Judy Garland and Barbra Streisand?

Beyoncé…

Say it softly, and it’s almost like praying. Continue reading

LOVE AND SEX IN THE CITY (Episode 34)

Blog_Love And Sex In The City 02“Nawa o!” Ekene exclaimed, punctuating his words with a snap of his fingers. “Adebola went too far abeg. What nonsense.”

“It’s ridiculous, really, guys who will go to any great lengths to be bad just for another guy,” Yinka said as he steered his car past the gateway of the Maison Fahrenheit Hotel.

“Straight people do much worse in their relationships,” Ekene rejoined tersely. “Drama due to jealousy is not exclusive to gay relationships.”

“I’m not saying it is,” Yinka said. “And I’m not trying to go the ‘he’s a man like you, you shouldn’t fight over him’ route. I’m simply saying that if it’s me, gay or straight, I would never stress myself over another human being.”

“Yea well, you’ve never been in love,” Ekene said. When Yinka opened his mouth to speak, he quickly added, “And don’t even wave that your ‘I’m in a relationship’ flag. What you and Dayo are doing is a joke, as far as I’m concerned.” Continue reading

That Article About Gay Men And What They’re Still Learning To Love About Their Bodies

groupOriginally published on nightcharm.com

After centuries of religious oppression and decades of sexual shaming and second-class citizenship, gay men are finally achieving legal and social equality with the ability to confidently come out. But we still have a lot to work on when it comes to self-acceptance, especially within our own community and for our bodies. Here are ten things we often get hung up on:

  1. WE DON’T LOOK LIKE THE MEN IN GAY MAGAZINES

We don’t have that six-pack, shiny smooth skin or the chiseled muscles guys in the underwear ads do. But then again, if you caught those same guys on a random Tuesday night, you’d discover that neither do they.

It takes a very precise exercise program, special short-term diet planning and intentional dehydration to look “model-hot” on the specific day and hour of a photo shoot — those models don’t look that way on most days of the year.

Plus, professional photographers are making big bucks for knowing how to take the most flattering photos, and then everything goes through Photoshop.

Wouldn’t you rather show a little life and grit in the way you look every day? Continue reading

Fortune Calls Apple CEO Tim Cook a ‘Global Role Model’

Tim CookThe magazine’s eclectic list also includes Taylor Swift (No. 6) one spot behind Pope Francis (No. 5), along with Mark Zuckerberg (No. 25), Jeff Bezos (No. 27), and Jimmy Fallon (No. 45), along with world leaders and activists. The editors cite Apple stock’s and the innovations of Apple Pay and the Apple Watch. But it is the fact that Cook’s “gradually becoming more open and outspoken, including on a variety of non-corporate social issues. By announcing that he is gay, Cook also has done something few would have predicted: become a global role model,” which also helped him land at the No. 1 spot.

Excerpts from the interview in the issue include some interesting insights:

On what he learned taking over for Steve Jobs, and how he dealt with the scrutiny:

“I have thick skin, but it got thicker. What I learned after Steve passed away, what I had known only at a theoretical level, an academic level maybe, was that he was an incredible heat shield for us, his executive team. None of us probably appreciated that enough because it’s not something we were fixated on. We were fixated on our products and running the business. But he really took any kind of spears that were thrown. He took the praise as well. But to be honest, the intensity was more than I would ever have expected…. You pick up certain skills when the truck is running across your back. Maybe this will be something great that I’ll use in other aspects of my life over time.” Continue reading

Question Of The Day IV

So here’s a quick question.Screenshot_2015-03-22-01-28-36

Go on then, give us your answers. If you’ve ever wanted to have a quick one before your roommate returned from the barbershop, or at night in the same room with your snoring cousin, or – in some shocking cases, I’ve heard – closeted in the men’s room of a fast-food joint… how quick did you want it to be?