The past two weeks have been crazy hectic. I’ve had to study because it’s that time of the semester where tests pop up unexpectedly and I wonder what spirit made me go pick the course I’m doing.
My libido seems to be suffering for it, which is unusual considering the fact that I am more often than not up for sex. I have wanked more than five times in one day on more than one occasion (it was during strike, don’t blame me). But now the thought of sex is like “naaah.”
I still wank when I feel like, but I don’t want to be with other people sexually. I want to be selfish and think of myself. I could go top somebody but I find it hard being the selfish top (I want to come when I feel like and more often than not, it’s early. But I’m usually ready for rounds 2 and 3 in a jiffy). And most Nigerian tops are rather selfish and just think that the fact that they are ramming in and out of your ass means you’re enjoying it, so I’d rather not bottom anytime soon.
Speaking of selfish tops, Ash, my best friend of five years lives in America now, and he tells me of his sexcapades and how the tops do everything in their power to make the bottom happy. I envy the mofo. I just hope he’s playing safe sha.
Moving on. I was thinking a while back in class, when my lecturer was droning on and on about xenobiotics, what it would be like to fuck a lady. Is pussy as great as the straight ones say it is? I’ve been a bit bi-curious since then. But I’m rather timid when it comes to the fairer sex and I wonder what the fuck would happen if I totally fucked up during sex and don’t give it to her good (a constant worry that plagues me even when I top). Lol. I’ll try and make up for it in other ways though *wags tongue* I can imagine someone saying “eeewww” right now, but I eat clean ass if I am asked to, so why not pussy. I mean I could just close my eyes and pretend it’s pomo or something.
Some days ago this fine specimen of a male beeped me. Hubba-hubba! I just wanted to lick him. But then, it was time to strike a conversation, and the whole thing was just awkward. With one word answers from each side. Normally I play coy if someone beeps me first… He should be the one to make the conversation, you know. But when two people are playing coy… Needless to say, the conversation was going nowhere and I decided to be full-on friendly. And still, all I got were one word answers, and it was so frustrating be, no matter how cute you are, if you can’t hold a fucking convo, I can’t deal. I’m not going to force myself on you. But I will give you chances to be better before I delete your fine face from my phone (that’s so I won’t end up looking desperate chasing after the person. Not cause I’m a snob)
Which brings me to something I’ve been toying with in my head. Conversations with people via IM… how can they be grouped? Lol. There are the people with no conversation skills, like the one I mentioned above. There are also those who just want to talk about sex. Then there are those who are desperate for a hookup. And those who ask you for nudes so much you begin to wonder if they are using your pictures for juju. There are those who you’d love to talk to but show up at the wrongest of times, and there are those who snub you and won’t even read your pings though you know they are with their phone 24/7. There are the Drama Queens (I added someone who began to ask why I didn’t immediately say hi to him after adding him and wanted to make an issue of it. Thank goodness the delete button isn’t very far). Then there are the ones who you click with almost immediately and it feels like you’ve been friends forever, till one day they stop giving you attention and y’all just drift apart. So, so many more, and the funny part is that each and every one of us fits into this category.
I downloaded an extended playlist by Owl City, my favoritest musician in the whole wide world (do I hear gasps? Sorry Bey), and I’m loving it so much. I also bought a social psychology textbook… why? Cause I’m weird like that. I’d also like to know how society affects my wee little mind and how I can manipulate people *evil laughter*
I have to stop now *eyes histology textbook warily*
Y’all remember to stay FLAWLESS and hold your head high wherever you are cause our fabulousness and awesomeness should not be hidden.
Written by James